Surrendering is Hard

Most of you may have noticed that I’ve been pretty quiet on Instagram and posted here and there to this blog, the podcast and my YouTube channels. Trust me I have a reason for this and I am going to do my best to explain.

First off, what does it mean to surrender? Well, in short, the verb, to surrender, means to give in to an authority. And of course the authority in my case is God.

Also, if we back track just a bit, I’ve referred to myself as a recovering people pleaser… and well, I had to ask myself, “it was so easy to surrender to the world and to people, but not to God?” But I digress.

Surrendering to or giving in to God looks different for everyone, but the lack thereof looks the same for everyone: there is a form of resistance in us all when we do not surrender to God.

Lets chat quickly about this word resist:

;the refusal to accept or comply with something; the attempt to prevent something by action or argument

No matter how the word is used, its meaning stays the same. Yes, the context changes, but the meaning remains.

If you are resisting or you resist something you are refusing to accept or comply which inevitably makes the process of getting through whatever you’re resisting longer, harder and maybe even more detrimental to the intended outcome. And well, resistance of any kind, but especially to God, has always kept me in a cycle of endless circles.

Frustration is real.

Clarity seems as if it doesn’t exist.

What once seemed so right and so easy no longer feels that way.

Anxiety is at an all-time high.

I’m on this hamster wheel and I know I have the choice to free myself, but I’m going so fast that I’m afraid to jump off.

Somehow, I found myself recently in this cycle of resistance. I will admit that there were other personal and spiritual matters going on, but deep-down, I knew I was living in some form of resistance. I just couldn’t put my finger on exactly what it was until now.

I had to learn to let go of what I wanted and what I thought I needed and what I was chasing after. I didn’t realize how selfish (yep, I said it..) I was being in my relationship with God by not fully surrendering to what he wanted from me. Like, he is my creator, my provider, my Abba just fulfilling my hearts desires beyond my wildest dreams and I couldn’t give up my visions for his… how does that look and sound?

The word you’re looking for is crazy lol.

Practicing the art of letting go - ‘cause trust me, there’s an art to all of this and its found in your reverence towards and relationship with God - is not about ignoring the emotion, but being able to move through it with ease and grace every time.

And by accepting what is, what was and what always will be, we make ourselves more open to clarity, solutions, blueprints, clearer visions and new perspectives. I mean once acceptance settles in you’ll be able to look at that same situation through an entirely new lens.

All of a sudden, a door, window or opening appears where there didn’t seem to be one before.

We have to disrupt the thought that we are our own. We have to disrupt the thoughts that we always know whats best for us. We have disrupt the thoughts that say we know it all.

Disrupt them with curiosity, grace and truth - not judgement.

Disrupt them in a way that shows you love yourself and you’re doing this for the greater good. You’d rather not stay complacent and resistant because you understand that greater is on the other side of surrendering and accepting.

God has had me on this journey of faith and business for four years now and its been fun. I’ve learned a lot and I’ve had many wins… but God is slowly showing me that this is only the beginning, and to get past this beginning, I have to surrender my ambitions to truly let him have his way.

I am so excited to continue sharing my journey with you. I pray that what I do and share is motivation for you to treat everything in this life as if its not your own, but your Creator’s, Jehovah-Gibbor, the one true God.

If you’ve made it this far, leave comment below sharing your thoughts. Are you currently in a season of resisting or surrendering? Can you remember a time where you’ve gone through either of these seasons before? What are you currently struggling to accept?

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Til next time…

xoxo,

Victoria Grace